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| i want someone who just wants to be near me, to hold my hair, to put my hair back behind my ear when it falls in my face, to wrap me in his arms, to love me the same way i love him..
She's the girl that has a few best friends & doesn't need anymore, the girl that laughs the hardest at her own jokes. She's the girl that will hang up on you, but then call you back right away & say sorry, She's the girl who will never leave your side when you need her,the girl who will go out of her way to cheer you up. She's the girl who never sleeps without her teddy bear by her side, she's the girl who will not give up on you if she really believes in you. She's the girl who believes in loving somebody forever.
"I just don't know if I wanna do it anymore, get close to somebody so they can leave again."
- - One Tree Hill
Sometimes she thinks she's strong, sometimes she thinks she's gone, past the point of feeling anything at all. S ometimes she's sure she's crazy. Sometimes she feels like maybe the only way to survive is to stay angry. And that works fine most of the time, but some things make her cry.. like Bruce Springsteen, silver Sebrings, eggs scrambled hard, home-made birthday cards. A gray sweatshirt over faded jeans with a hole in the pocket where a wallet's supposed to be. Blue sheets on an unmade bed, strong shoulders with a summer tan and rain in the headlights. Yeah, some things make her cry. She didn't shed a tear when he left her here, November 21st of last year. She said she'd be just fine, but maybe she lied cause some things make her cry.. like drive-in movies, oatmeal cookies, 49'ers, all night diners. Blue eyes under a red ball cap, waking up alone at 3AM. Icy streets, New Year's Eve, falling asleep on a brown love seat and runway lights. Yeah, some things make me cry.
"I never wanted the stars--never shot for the moon.
I like them right where they are;
all I ever wanted was you."
- Bon Jovi
She wouldn't care if you called her and woke her up just to talk at two in the morning. She loves arguing, and she's good at it. Scary movies make her paranoid and she hates when people don't call her back. She envies every couple she sees walking around and showing their happiness. She only wants to be happy and lately, all she thinks about is you.
between laughing for no reason,
stupid arguments, long talks, and
making fun of eachother...
i've fallin in love with you.
the lyrics to almost every song
remind me of you. how is that,
i cant get rid of you in my head?
you`re the dirty little secret
i don`t tell anyone about :)
so, what if i think too much,
or if i over-analyze everything.
so what if i can't sleep...
at least you know,
youre always on my mind.
everyone's afraid of something, that's how you know
you care about things, when you're afraid you'll lose them <3
take chances. be young. go crazy. drive fast. kiss slow. no regrets.
it's like every time i step away from you, something pulls me back.
if your love is wrong, then i don't ever wanna be right.
sometimes you have to quit thinking so much. if it feels right, it probably is. so just go with it, ♥
"To me, "FEARLESS" is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. FEARLESS is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again...even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. It's FEARLESS to have faith that sometime things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them. I think it's FEARLESS to fall for your best friend, even thought he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, I think it's FEARLESS to stop believing them. It's FEARLESS to say "you're NOT sorry", and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is FEARLESS. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright...That's FEARLESS too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. That's why I write these songs. Because I think love is FEARLESS."
-TS♥
youmakemesmile.
when you finally get something amazing you
enjoy it, keep it, cherish it.
& you definately fight for it.
"What do you really want?" I asked him impatiently. "You, I want you," he replied. I wasn't buying it. I turned to walk away, when he stopped me. "I want that part of you that gets excited when you hear the ice cream truck. The part that cries when old people die in movies. The part that cares much more than what she wears. The part where she can totally be herself. The part that when I look at her, I only see her. The part where she could never give up a stuffed animal, cause she'll feel bad for it. The part where she wants me, too. That's what I really want."
i just thank God you're here.
cause when im a bullet shot out of a gun,
when im a fire cracker coming undone,
when im a fugitive ready to run,
all wide eyed & crazy.
no matter where my reckless soul takes me,
baby you save me.
,, & home is always where you are.
She's never been one to wait around. She's always moving and dancing and running. But for some reason, with him, she's patient. She'll wait. She'll wait for nobody and nothing else, except him.
she's never been one to wait around. but for some reason, with him, shes patient. she'll wait for nobody & nothing else, except for him. <3
&& she can't help daydreaming of you
Since you're all she really ever wanted
"you were my ticket out of here & i was your dream come true." ♥
i may not remember the first time we spoke or the first moment i realized that i loved you, but i do know that everything in my life seems better when you're by my side.
It's times like these when all I really want to do is put on your favourite t-shirt, curl up in a ball and sleep to dry these tears. Never in my life did I think that I would need someone so much.
i gave you everything, every part of me.. didn't you know how much i loved you.
it's hard now to let you be, it must have been something to send me out of my head, its just me & these four walls again...
Follow the tugs in your heart. I think that everyone gets these gentle urges and should listen to them. Even if they sound absolutely insane, they may be worth going for.
-Victoria Moran
it's a beautiful thing. now that we're together, i'm stronger than ever. i'm happy and free.. ♥
i wanna believe in everything you say,
cause it sounds so good. but if you really
want me, move slow. theres things about me,
you just got to know. sometimes i run, sometimes
i hide. sometimes im scared of you. but all i really want
is to hold you tight, treat you right. be with you day & night.
So you see, this world doesn't matter to me. I'll give up all I had just to breathe the same air as you till the day that I die. I can't take my eyes off of you.
they didn't agree on much.
they challenged eachother every day.
but despite their differences,
they had one thing on common;
they were crazy about eachother.
she can do just fine on her own two feet. she'll never change, don't know how to hide her stubborn will or her fightin' side. but you treat her right and she'll love you like no one else♥ - george strait
i love you more than everything in the world combined.
isn't that enough? - twlight.
"Forgiving you, she's stronger than I am. You don't look much like a man from where I'm at. It's plain to see, desperation showed it's truth. You love her, she loves you with all she has. I guess I should've been more like that. I should've held on to my pride, I should've never let you lie. I guess you got what you deserve. I guess I should've been more like her. She's beautiful, in her simple little way."
-More Like Her; Miranda Lambert
when were together, i forget the day's concern & nothing seems to matter except being in your arms... when we touch, i leave everything behind & enter a world of dreams made only for us. when we kiss, i lose myself completely in the joy that i've discovered in the wonder of you. you're the best thing that's ever happened to me, and i know how very lucky i am to have you to love.
I remember trying not to stare the night that I first met you. You had me mesmerized, and three weeks later in the front porch light, taking forty five minutes to kiss goodnight. I hadn't told you yet, but I thought I loved you then.
-I Thought I Loved You Then; Brad Paisley
"We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won't solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home." -TWLOHA.
If you are ready to jump, I will be here to catch you.
-How to Deal
I want to know exactly what makes you tick, I want to know your problems. I want to know what days you're waking up on the wrong side of the bed, I want to know how many pillows you sleep with. I want to know why you sleep with a window open. I want to know if I'm ever needed, if I'm good enough to keep you warm at night time. I want to know if I even have a chance anymore. I want to know everything about you, whether it be fact or fiction. I want to know your past, your future, your in betweens. Your favorite colors, your phobias; everything.
Can I tell you one thing? It's a secret so hold on tight; I need your help to close my eyes, to fall asleep at night. Can I say one more thing? Another secret, hold on tight; a one track heart, a one track mind, I've been told they're not right. I've become too dependent on every word you sing. I need this sound to close my eyes, it's my everything. I've become too dependent on every word you sing, but I don't care it's our sound, our everything.
There's so much I wish for these days, but most of all, I wish you were here. It's strange, but before I met you, I couldn't remember the last time I cried. Now it seems that tears come easily to me...but you have a way of making my sorrows seem worthwhile, of explaining things in a way that lessens my ache. You are a treasure, a gift, and when we're together again, I intend to hold you until my arms are weak and I can do it no longer. My thoughts of you are sometimes the only things that keep me going.
Hey unfaithful, i will teach you to be stronger
Hey ungraceful, i will teach you to forgive one another
Hey unloving, i will love you.
He and I had something beautiful, but so dysfunctional, it couldn't last. I loved him so, but I let him go, 'cause I knew he'd never love me back. Such pain as this shouldn't have to be experienced; I'm still reeling from the loss, still a little bit delirious. Near to you, I am healing, but it's taking so long. 'Cause though he's gone, and you are wonderful, it's hard to move on. Yet, I'm better near to you. You and I have something different, but I'm enjoying it cautiously. I'm battle scarred, I am working oh so hard to get back to who I used to be. He's disappearing, fading subtly, I'm so close to being yours. Yet, I'm better near to you. Yet, I'm better near to you.
Sometimes you just feel everything and nothing at once. Sometimes you'll find yourself smiling while missing something at the same time. At times you can absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them. Life comes without guarantees except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes, and falling in love will change your life.
ere it goes; I know you've moved on, moved on for good. But there are things you don't know, things I don't show, things that I hide inside. I know to you it seems like I didn't care, seems like I was never there, but there was never once a day that you don't cross my mind, a million times. And believe me, if I could go back, I would but things are different now. Time caught up with us and broke us apart, because now you found someone else, but thats what bothers me. What bothers me is that you left me and that I left you, with words unspoken and a story unread. Words that are still trying to escape my heart and reach out to you, words that don't notice that time has past, words that still have meaning. What bothers me is that you didn't see the tears I cried and you didn't know that I lied when I told you I was happy. What bothers me is that you still cross my heart a million times a day, and even when I'm sleeping, I can still hear your voice telling me how much you love me or how much you miss me, and that's the only time I'm ever happy. It's when I'm reminiscing about you and dreaming about us. But when reality hits me, it just kills me. But the thing that bothers me the most is that all of this could have been preventend if I had just said something or done something, and the only thing that doesn't bother me is that I learned a valuable lesson... you don't really know what you've got until it's gone.
Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake then subsides. And when it subsides you have a decision to make. You have to work out wheter your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should never part. Because that is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being 'in love' which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this both an art and a fortunate accident.
What you need to know about the past is that no matter what happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now.
I want to be everything you need, the every sight you see. The closest thing to epidemic, slightly your disease. A love without a cure, no uncertainties for sure. The closest thing to alcohol that calls you back for more.
-My Obsession by Kelly Rowland
A part of you has grown in me. And so
you see, it's you and me together forever
and never apart, maybe in distance, but never in heart.
+ + Author Unknown
Grab my hand, trust me. We'll run away, so far away. They will never find us and we'll finally be free to live our lives our way.
with you by my side, everything in the world seems better. good things are twice as much fun because i share them with you, i get to see you smile... bad things are only half as bad because i know i can count on you to help me through them. with you to hold my hand, i know that i have someone who sees life a lot like i do, someone who shares the same values, dreams the same dreams... i know that i have someone who understands the parts of me that other people don't even know exist. with you in my life, i know that i have everything anyone could ever want - someone who's understanding, and supportive, who's fun and interesting.. someone i love who also happens to be my best friend. <3
if there's just one piece of advice i can give you, it's this - when there's something you really want, fight for it, don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems. and when you've lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now, you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot. because the best things in life, they don't come free.
i wanted you to fight for me. i wanted you to say there is no one else that you could ever be with & that you would rather be alone than without me.
this aint gonna be easy boy, this love thing we have.. but i can tell you one thing ; im willing to fight if youll take my hand.
obstacles are put in our way so you know what is really worth fighting for.
find a person who loves your for exactly what you are. good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you. the right person is still going to think the sun shines outta your ass. +& thats the kinda person worth sticking wit.
baby your my everything, your all i ever wanted we can do it real big, bigger then you ever done it. you be up on errything other hoes aint ever on it, i want this forever i swear i can spend whatever on it.
i love it when my fingers are entangled in yours, my head is on your chest, and im listening to your heart beat. it makes me feel like nothing could ever go wrong and im totally and completely safe with you.
when it comes to relationships, people are always so scared of the 'what-ifs'.. they forget the what-is. they spend so much time thinking, "what if get hurt?" & "what if it doesn't work out?" that they stop thinking about the things that are already real. they forget the feeling they get when the person they love walks into the room & the excitement that rushes through them when the phone rings because it might be the person they are waiting to hear from. never let the fear of what-if stop you from letting yourself take a chance on love.. because "what if" this is the person you're destined to spend the rest of your life with?
I want to be with you, I just want to be with you. If I could hold your hand for the rest of my life, I would never be scared again. I want to hold you tight & I want to tell you every second how much you mean to me because nobody has ever meant more. I want to be able to help you & make you smile, just like you make me smile.
They give their hearts to each other unconditionally;
that's what love is. Its not this fairy tale life that never
knows pain, but its two souls facing it together &
diminishing it with unconditional love.
- One Tree Hill
I know you say you've lost your faith in love
But it's not written in the stars above
I wouldn't tell you anything but the truth
Cause I've been where you are
And I'm living proof
You'll live to love another day
[Rascal Flatts- Live to Love Another Day]
She took down all her old pictures, and now her wall is empty.
It's not that she's ready to forget everything in the past...
she's just realizing it's time to move on.
She's not going to replace the memories,
but she's gonna make new ones, better ones.
They didn`t agree much,
in fact they rarely agreed at all.
They fought all the time &&
challenged eachother everyday.
But despite their differences, they
had one thing in common, they
were crazy about eachother<3
Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those who know a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough.
and all she needs right now
is for him to wrap her up in his
arms, look her in the eyes, and
tell her he won’t give up.
You're probably thinking I've forgotten all about you by now, but that's far from it. I have missed you every waking day and my heart still hurts, but I'm getting better. I continue to smile and still go on without you. I know I have missed you, but I have kept it all inside of me, only for me to know. I still wonder about your doings, how you are, what you're doing, what we used to talk about, to the laugh in your voice. Just, everything. I miss it all. However, I feel that the parting of us was for the best, because everything happens for a reason. Should destiny put us into a crossing road in the future, that is when I will see you again. Until then, remember this; No matter what, even through the screaming fights, the disagreements, mistakes and the tears we've cried. Never, ever, did I give up on you. So if you ever need a helping hand, do not hesitate to ask. I may be far away, but I will always be in reach.
we're so arrogant, aren't we? so afraid of age. we do everything we can to prevent it. we don't realize what a privilege it is to grow old with someone. someone who doesn't drive you to commit murder or doesn't humiliate you beyond repair. - ps i love you.
truth is, sometimes you scare the hell out of me. you make me feel as if i'm not alone, yet i know any minute you have the ability to rip that feeling away from me. truth is, i love you and that in itself is scary enough.
if you love her, tell her. chances are, she loves you twice as much.
i believe that two people are connected at the heart. and it doesn't matter what you do, who you are or where you live.. there are no boundaries or barriers if two people are destined to be together.
love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person. love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of. love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak in the knees when they walk into a room & smile at you.
you dont get to choose who you love. you just fall. and, you usually get this person who is all wrong & all right at the same time. and, you know you love them so much but, sometimes they drive you completely insane and no one can explain it. and, the reason its so confusing is because its love. but, if love didnt have any challenges.. what would be the point?
"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, & someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs; how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. & maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy. maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and
embarrassment... you never gave up hope."
Thank you for everything you taught me, even
if you weren't intending to. Thank you for those
nights we rolled back the seats in your car, and
just stared out at the stars. Thank you for holding
my hand, and making me feel like I mattered.
Thank you, so much, for showing me that love
exists, and even I could fall in love.
Cause like you said, this is it. This is life. And I'm in love with you... I think that's the only thing I've ever really been sure of in my entire life. And I'm really messed up right now, and I got a whole lot of stuff I have to work out, but I don't want to waste any more of my life without you in it.
-Garden State
I want to marry you because you are the first person I want to look at when I wake up in the morning, and the only person I want to kiss goodnight. Because the first time that I saw these hands, I couldn't imagine not being able to hold them.
-Definitely Maybe.
I wasn't sure this day would ever come, but you were. I wasn't sure love could survive everything we put it through, but you were. You were always strong and always sure. And now I know I want you to stand beside me for the rest of my life. That's what I'm sure of.
-Boy Meets World
I barely know you. I don't know you dad's first name, I don't know if you ever wore braces, or contacts, or glasses and I have no idea how you came to be a wedding planner, Mary. But I do know the curves of your face. And I know ever fleck of gold in your eyes. I know that the night at the park was the best time I've ever had. Pl-please say something.
-The Wedding Planner
i am not pushing you away,
i am holding on for dear life..
but i need you to need me back.
-one tree hill.
dream as big as your heart will let you & never hold back..
truth is, sometimes you scare the shit out of me.
you make me feel as if i'm not alone, yet i know any minute you have the
ability to rip that feeling away from me. truth is, i love you and that in itself is scary enough.
is this what you wanted?
cause i'm willing to change.
now that i'm certain,
there's so much more to gain.
you've introduced me to the moment,
but i'm looking to stay for good...
without you i'm giving it away. ♥
i dont know what you're doin & i don't know where you are, but i look up at that great big sky & i hope you're wishing on that same bright star... i wonder, i pray. i sleep alone, i cry alone.. i'll wait for you, don't wanna die alone.
i still imagine your touch, it's beautiful missing something that much. but, sometimes love needs a fighting chance, so i'll wait my turn until it's our turn to dance. <3
Love`s like faith ;; it`s believing in something you can`t see,
believing in something you can`t touch. It`s about sacrificing
yourself for the ultimate goal ;; about overlooking what
everyone else refuses to see. It`s like a game of chance ;; a
game of strategy cause sometimes we don`t make the right
moves or even the right choices. It`s about learning what
those right moves are. Love`s complicated ;; it`s full of
expectation cus it`s complex & draining, asking you to give
yourself to someone when you`re afraid. It`s about giving
someone the ability to destroy you, & trusting them not to.
people say they'll stand beside you, swear they'll never leave - but when the rain started fallin', you know it only fell on me. ♥
I don't know if we each have a destiny, or if we're all floating around accidental-like on a breeze but i, i think maybe it's both. maybe both is happening at the same time.
- Forrest Gump
we fit together, like this was planned somehow.
you & i just fit, physically, you make me feel safe,
& when i'm curled up next to you & i can hear your
heart beat, i know that's where i'm supposed to be. i
have never felt like there was a place where i belonged,
where i fit, until i found you. & it might sound cheesy,
and overplayed. but i don't think that there's anywhere
else in the world where i fit better, than in your arms
I wouldn't change a thing, I'd walk right back through the rain.
Back to every broken heart, on the day that it was breaking.
And I'd relive all the years, and be thankful for the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step, that led to you and got me here.
So you see, this world doesn't matter to me. I'll give up all I had just to breathe the same air as you till the day that I die. I can't take my eyes off of you.
Before, my fear was being vulnerable. The ability of another human
being to possibly tear apart your insides at any moment was enough
to keep me running. He, however, made my insides come alive, my smile
become permanent, laughter more frequent. He took away my fear and
gave me hope. But more importantly, for the first time in my life,
instead of wanting to run, he gave me every reason to stay.
"its funny how your best friends become your worst enemies. your boyfriend becomes your world. suckers turn into cigarettes. the innocent ones turn into sluts. homework goes in the trash. soda becomes vodka. undies turn into thongs. it used to be getting high was only on a swingset, protection only meant wearing a helmet, 69 was only a number. the worst thing you could get from a boy were cooties. dad's shoulders were the highest place on earth and mom was your hero. wearing a skirt didnt make you a whore. the only thing that hurt you were skinned knees, and goodbyes only meant untill tomorrow ..and we couldnt wait to grow up."
Someday you will meet someone who drives you crazy; someone you'll laugh with and fight with and just do totally insane things for. Basically, someone who turns your life upside down.
You know what I love the most about us? I love how comfortable we are with each other. I love how we can endless crack on each other been never take the teasing to heart. I love how when I walk away from you when we're fighting, you try to stay mad but always end up running after me. I love you and everything about you. The look in your eyes when you kiss me, how we can stay up all night just talking about nothing. I love how you can call me and no matter my mood you somehow always seem to make me laugh. I love how you need me as much as I need you. But most of all, I love how you love me.
My teenage years were exactly what they were supposed to be. Everybody has their own path. It's laid out for you. It's just up to you to walk it. - Justin Timberlake
All she really wants is a boy that keeps his promises and listens to her babbles. Someone to call when she gets scared from a movie she's watching. Someone to laugh at her and someone to hold her hand when she pulls away. It's really not that much to ask for, is it?
You know when you find that guy that knows just what to say to make you smile? He makes you feel safe and completely comfortable with being yourself. It' okay to sound stupid every once in a while because it makes him laugh. You stay up all night playing Mario cart and having thumb wars. You spend most of your time together goofing around and cuddling. And when you're not together, you talk on the phone til 3:30 in the morning. It takes 10 minutes just to say goodbye because he won't let you go and you don't wanna leave anyways. Yeah...that's what I call love.
You're the reason I wake up every morning and put a smile on.
The reason I ignore every guys' attempt to hit on me.
The reason my glass is half full instead of half empty.
You're the reason I feel alive again.
he finds another way to be the highlight of my day, i'm taking pictures in my mind so i can save it for a rainy day.. it's hard to make a conversation when he's taking my breath away.
it's an amazing feeling when you find the boy who, you know, no matter what happens, you two will always make it through everything, all the hard times because you love each other that much.
i think you want to be beautiful in someone's eyes, you want to be seen. like, if i shot off fireworks & no one was there to watch them, and i closed my eyes.. they become beautiful in being seen. maybe you're not supposed to be beautiful to be seen.. you just have to be seen as beautiful by someone, by one person.
it's there.. i know it is. because when i look at you, i can feel it.
you know he's something special when no matter what kind of mood you're in, he can always manage to make you smile.
out of all the things i could do with you, i look forward to sleeping with you. not having sex, just sleeping in the same bed, you holding me in your arms & me falling asleep on your chest.. waking up with you right next to me. that's what i want. that's what i look forward to.
you know, i could've held you in my arms forever.
& it still wouldn't have been long enough. <3
++ one tree hill
| | |
| looking in your eyes, i see a paradise..
this world that ive found is too good to be true.
standing here beside you, want so much to give you.
this love in my heart that i'm falling for you.
let them say were crazy, i dont care about that.
put your hand in my hand baby, dont ever look back.
let the world around us just fall apart.
baby, we can make it if were heart to heart.
and we can build this dream together,
standing strong forever. nothings gonna us stop us now.
and if this world runs out of lovers, we will still have eachother..
nothings gonna stop us, nothings gonna stop us now.
i'm so glad i found you, i'm not gonna lose you.
whatever it takes, i will stay here with you.
take it to the good times, see it through the bad times..
whatever it takes is what i'm gonna do.
let them say were crazy, what do they know?
put your arms around me baby, dont ever let go.
let the world around us just fall apart.
baby, we can make it if were heart to heart.
and we can build this dream together,
standing strong forever. nothings gonna us stop us now.
and if this world runs out of lovers, we will still have eachother..
nothings gonna stop us, nothings gonna stop us now.
all that i need is you, all that i ever need.
all i want to do, is hold you forever.. and ever.. and ever.
| | |
| i adore life & the lessons in learning.. you define your life yourself, its what YOU make of it, nobody else. take the experiences & never regret even if you fall.
There's a big fucking world out there.
It's messy, and it's chaotic,
and it's never, it's never ever the thing you'd expect.
It's ok to be scared,
but you cannot allow your fears to turn you into an asshole,
not when it comes to the people that really love you,
the people that need you.
+ In The Land of Women
you come away with a great little story of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you. <3
Out of all the things I could do with you I look forward to sleeping with you the most. Not having sex but more than that – just sleeping in the same bed, you holding me in your arms and me falling asleep on your chest and waking up with you right next to me. That’s what I want. That’s what I look forward to.
I know. I've known it since the moment you kissed me and maybe even before that, and scary as it is, I don't want to deny it anymore. I don't want to run from it and I don't want to let it run from me.
You make me feel something I can't describe. I always catch myself thinking about the things you do. There isn't anyone else I need; I've got my heart set on you.
Truth is, sometimes you scare the shit out of me. You make me feel as if I'm not alone. Yet, I know any minute you have the ability to rip that feeling from me. Truth is, I love you, and that in itself, is scary enough.
There have been lots of cars in my driveway and lots of
boys on my couch. I’ve toyed with the bad boys, momma’s
boys, & country boys. I’ve been broken by a few, and broken
a few myself. I’ve never said “I love you,” and I’ve never
had the need. I’ve been the rebound, the challenge, the
fall back, and the girlfriend. I’ve been the mistake, and the
correction. One day someone will love me for what I’ve been
and what I am, where I’ve been, and where I am. One day.
Someone will love me.
I remember all the late night talks and all the words I was so comfortable saying to him, but I never would have been able to say to anyone else. I remember all the songs that take me back and make me smile. I remember all the promises, the ones we both knew would be broken. I remember all the moments he took my breath away and how he knew more about me than I thought anyone could. I remember the games we’d play ‘cause we talked about so much I couldn’t think of anything else to say. I thought about what kindof person could have thrown that all away and hurt someone that much. Going into it, I never thought that it would have ended like that. After wanting someone for so long, it’s supposed to be perfect, right? And everything should last forever. But I fell out of love, and when you loved someone you just wanted them to be happy. Even if their happiness doesn’t involve you.
The way you move is like a full on rainstorm and I'm a house of cards. You say my name for the first time, baby, and I fall in love in an empty bar. And your stood there in front of me just close enough to touch, close enough to hope you couldn't see what I was thinking of. Drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain, kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain, cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile. Hit me with those green eyes, baby as the lights go down. Something that'll haunt me when you're not around. Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile. So reach out open handed and lead me out to that floor well I don't need more paper lanterns. Take me down, baby bring on the movie star, cause my heart is beating fast and you are beautiful, I could wait patiently but I really wish you would Drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain, kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain, cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile. Hit me with those green eyes, baby as the lights go down. Something that'll haunt me when you're not around. Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile.
Sometimes what you're searching for;is right where you left it.-Sweet Home Alabama
I'm doing fine on my own. When we broke up, I didn't run off and find another man to replace you. But I see you have a new girl, even though it's only been a few days. And according to your lies, you're still loving me even though we are apart. So when I see you look at her the way you used to look at me, I just laugh. I'm sure you're telling her all the same lies you told me. I won't be sad when I think about our memories, I'm sure you're off making better ones with her. You two can go on and be something great. I'm not gonna wish it would of been us. I'm doing fine on my own. But when I finally do find another man, I'll be shining like a star. And then we'll see who's left wishing what could of been.
I hope to be a role model for maybe that kid who…doesn't fit the mold." ---Adam Lambert
The greatest feeling in the world is to be around someone who wants to hold you, wants to kiss your forehead, wants to be around you, wants to call you at night, wants to see you smile. But i think whats better than that is finding someone that does it all because he wants to see you happy.
And in the end, you’ll find out what life is and isn’t about. Like all those nights you spent crying because some guy "broke your heart", doesn’t matter once you find the right guy. And all the friends that made you feel so alone because they broke promises and turned their back on you, doesn’t really matter once you find out who you’re best friends really are. And all the random hook ups and late night kisses don’t turn out to be so perfect after all, once you find the one guy you want to kiss for the rest of your life. And all the parties, that you once thought were the greatest times of your life, don’t turn out to be so great, because it was the people who have been there for you always that make the greatest times of your life… and in the end you learn that sometimes the grass isnt always greener on the other side, that sometimes you have to go against what you know is right and just follow your heart. You learn to see through the lies and tears and somewhere in the midst of the drama and false hopes and broken promises; you find what life is really about.
i thought about you all day today & i just wanted to let you know. i miss you & i cant wait to be in your arms again.
the last time i saw him, i packed up my things & he smiled like the first time he told me his name & we cried with eachother, we spread the blame for the parts that we couldn't change. - sugarland.
so don't be afraid to make mistakes, stumble & fall. because most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. maybe you'll get everything you wish for. maybe you'll get more than you could have ever imagined. who knows where life will take you. the road is long & the journey is your destination.
when all you know seems so far away & everything is temporary - rest your head; im permanent. ♥
Just remember, you will survive
And you will be a better human for it.
and remember girls, the day he messages you on aim
don't reply to him, remember the tears he made you cry with simple words
the day he calls you, to apologize for the last time
remind yourself of everytime you know he lied
and everytime he tries to pull you back in
remind yourself of every girl, of every lie and every fucking tear,
because of one asshole, who thought he'd be cool and date more
than one girl;; don't be the weak one, stand up and let him know
'I've moved on, i don't need you"
The years go by.
The time, it does fly.
Every single moment is a second in time that passes oh-so quick,
and it seems like nothing.
But when you're looking back ...
it amounts to everything.
+ Catch 22
"If I could dream at all
it would be about you.
And I'm not ashamed of it."
- Edward Cullen
"You are my life.
You're the only thing it would hurt to lose"
- Twilight, Bella Swan
I just want to feel safe with someone…to not always be wondering how he feels about me, to not always be waiting for him to walk away, to not always wishing he would love me back. I need to be able to trust that a man is there for me for the right reasons, because he cares enough to be there.
i aint here to do anything half-way, dont give a damn what anyone might say - i just wanna free fall for awhile. ♥
Here's to the notes lost in the washer, to the memories washed away.
Here's to never forgetting.
Here's to being young and never wanting to grow up.
Here's to waking up next to the one you love.
Here's to believing every lie people ever told you.
Here's to those that just need someone to sleep next to.
Here's to change, both good and bad.
Here's to missing people you care about.
Here's to moving on.
Here's to feeling infinite.
Here's to all the wishes at 11:11, hoping one day they'll come true.
Here's to remembering old friends.
Here's to all the words we never said, and to the ones we choke on.
Here's to holding your breath in that one perfect moment.
Here's to the ones who were on top of the world but fell off.
Here's to every tear you've wasted on people who never cared.
Here's to trying to be perfect even when you know its not possible.
Here's to finding him, and holding on tight.
Here's to the nights spent living for the moment.
Here's to speaking the most honest words you've ever spoken in your life.
Here's to those who fall in love in their dreams.
Here's to not knowing, and not wanting to know.
Here's to those who wonder where love starts.
Here's to serendipity... even if it doesn't last.
Here's to the girls who fall too fast... and know it.
Here's to the songs that make you feel like nothing hurts.
Here's to the ones who bend over backwards to be loved, but aren't.
Here's to everyone who has ever cried themselves to sleep.
Here's to those nights where you just can't sleep.
Here's to every word they said to you replaying, over and over.
Here's to leaping before you look.
Here's to the times I wish I had said no.
Here's to the times I'm glad I said yes.
Here's to that tingly butterfly feeling you get when he's around.
Here's to the nights when feelings change, for better or worse.
Here's to the first kisses.
Here's to those who survived to become stronger, better people.
Here's to life, as hard as it may be, and picking yourself up when you've fallen down.
Yeah, you're sorry, I'm sorry, everybody's sorry, but I can't do this anymore. I can't, and I won't. I'm gone. -Fight Club.
A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves. If he's not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he's showing up at your new residence to do it in person ... if he's not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately he's just not that into you. Stop taking his calls and let him know what it's like to live without you. -Hes just not that into you<3
i believe laughing is the best calorie burner, i believe in kissing, kissing alot. i believe in being strong when everything seems to go wrong. i believe tomorrow is another day. i believe in miracles. -audrey hepburn.
"someday everything will all make perfect sense, so for now laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason ... ♥"
"Southern girls are God's gift to the entire male population. There is absolutely no woman finer than one raised below the Mason-Dixon line. Once you go Southern, may the good Lord help you, you never go back." - Kenny Chesney
theres only two types of guys out there- ones that can hang with me and ones that are scared.
& i dont know what i want so dont ask me cause im still tryin to figure it out- dont know whats down this road im just walking.
.'& im acting as if this blue sky's never gonna rain down on me' :)
"♥ i wanna live fast, kick ass, hard as anybody has, til they turn out the lights. if i get to come back, i promise you that i'm gonna walk a straighter line - in my next life."
this is not what i intended, i always swore to you id never fall apart. you always thought i was stronger, i may have failed.. but i have loved you from the start. ♥
i want love. real love. rediculous, inconvenient, consuming, cant live without eachother love. ♥
I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love. -sex & the city!
"lighten up while you still can; don't even try to understand, just find a place to make your stand... & take it easy. ♥"
Brooke: "I was afraid of getting my heart broken again, like before. 'Cause you hurt me so bad, and I was afraid to be vulnerable. And I was afraid of you and the way that you make me feel. And I know that doesn't matter now after what I did, but I just thought that you should know. This was how I spent my summer, Luke, wanting you... I'm just too scared to admit it."
"you lift my feet off the ground, you spin me around - you make me crazier, crazier."
'ive done been through the pain & the sorrow, the struggle is nothing but love.' - ♥
I won't lose sleep over you.
I will not cry over you.
I won't save no shit from you.
But instead here's what I'll do.
I'll date every guy I see,
And make sure that you see me.
And you'll regret that you're
no longer the one standing next to me.
I won't hate on what you do
When you find somebody new
And realize you were a fool .
But instead here's what I'll do
Shake my head with such disgrace
And throw my success in your face .
To be back with me is what you wish.
I'll make you hate yourself for this.
every step im taking, every move i make feels lost with no direction. my faith is shaking, but i got to keep trying; got to keep my head held high. theres always going to be another mountain, im always going to want to make it move. always going to be an uphill battle, sometimes im gonna have to lose. it aint about how fast i get there, it aint about whats waiting on the other side..
its the climb. the struggles im facing, the chances im taking, sometimes they knock me down, but no im not breaking. i may not know it, but these are the moments that im going to remember most. just gotta keep going & ive got to be strong. just keep pushing on.
you wont be his first, but you will be his last & only. hes loved before, but if he loves you now.. what else matters? hes not perfect, but neither are you, though youre perfect together. if he makes you laugh at least once, makes you think twice & admits to being human & makes mistakes, hold onto him, give him all youve got. he does have to quote poetry & he wont be thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him he knows you can break.. dont hurt him, dont change him, and dont expect too much for him. smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad & miss him when hes gone.
So I walked down those halls memorizing everything - the gym, the classrooms, my friends desks, & the memories of a year that went all too quickly. Here I was, leaving for the last time. No coming back on Monday for first period. No more thanking the Lord that it was finally Friday. No more sleeping in classes, no more gym periods. No more falling over laughing with my friends about a stupid prank. Class of 2007; I'm going to miss this place.
"the funny thing about love, is that love isnt just about feeling; its about doing.. its about doing whats right for the person you love. - molly ringwald."
Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say, find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense in living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived
It's those moments when you drive around in a car full of friends around a town too small for you. Where you gasp for breath between each laugh. It's those moments where you get high off just breathing in so deep, you feel your lungs getting cold. For a second, that split second, you don't care. You don't care about school, about parents, about money, about rules, or broken hearts. Who you care about are the kids sitting next to you. Yeah, the ones who make you feel invincible, even at your weakest points.♥
I know the journey seems so long, You feel you're walking on your own; But there has never been a step where you've walked out all alone .
&so I looked back on us today. I don't know why I missed you, why i wanted you back. because from where I stand, no one was having fun. sure, at the beginning we were kids rushing into things we had no idea what about, but slowly, instead of trusting you more, I trusted you less. I spent hours, days, even months of our relationship worrying about who you might leave me for because there was always someone better than me. i spent a year trying to be the perfect girlfriend until i couldn't anymore. my body tried to tell me it had to stop - our relationship was literally making me sick. but now i'm free, and i'm sorry, i did love you, but i had to get out. it was like poison slowly seeping through my body, infecting every possible organ, finally getting to my brain, telling me that this was it. this was the end. we weren't having fun anymore, and that's what you wanted right? i knew it was over before you said it, sweetheart. and i thought you broke my heart, but you merely made it stronger, made it resilient. because you don't deserve me or my love. goodbye my first love. thank you for being such a fabulous waste of time.
..im slow to trust, but im quick to love.. i push too hard & i give too much. i aint saying im perfect, but i promise im worth it. ♥ "
i've gotta be strong & just keep pushing on. there's always gonna be another moutain. i'm always gonna wanna make it move.
i guess it's gonna have to hurt. i guess i'm gonna have to cry and let go of some of the things i love to get to the other side. i guess it's gonna break me down, like falling when you're trying to fly. it's sad but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life starts with goodbye.
SHE'S GONNA MAKE IT
He never will. He's at the foot of another
Mountain; She's over that hill.
He's sinking at the sear,
and her sails are filled.
She's gonna make it
and he never will
You know it's not like she's forgotten
She's just dealing with the pain.
And the face that she surviced so well
without him?
You know it's driving him insane.
And the crazy thing about it is.
She'd take him back
But the fool in him that walking out is the
fool that won't ask
SHE'S GONNA MAKE IT
HE NEVER WILL.
we know its never simple, never easy.. never a clean back, no one here to save me.♥
You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months
over-analyzing a situation trying to put the pieces together,
justifying what could've, would've happened -
or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move on.
sometimes you just have to let everything fall down, pick up the pieces & start over.
you'll never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.
sometimes were so focused on finding our happy ending, we dont learn how to read the signs. how to tell from the ones who want us & the ones who dont, the ones who will stay & the ones who will leave. and, maybe a happy ending doesnt include a guy. maybe.. its you, on your own, picking up the pieces & starting over, freeing yourself up from something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just.. moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken hearts, through the blunders & misread signs, through all the pain & embarrassment.. you never gave up hope. - hes just not that into you.
he is a man made up entirely of your excuses. and, the minute you stop making excuses for him.. he will completely disappear from your life.
dont let the "honeys" & the "babys" fool you. his sweet nothings are exactly that. they are much easier to say than "im just not that into you." remember.. actions speak louder than "theres no cell reception where i am right now."
i dont want to be "sort of dating" someone. i dont want to be "kind of hanging out" with someone. i dont want to spend a lot of energy suppressing my feelings so i appear uninvolved. i want to be involved. i want to be sleeping with someone i know i'll see again because theyve already demonstrated to me that theyre trustworthy & honorable.. and into me.
..im slow to trust, but im quick to love.. i push too hard & i give too much. i aint saying im perfect, but i promise im worth it. ♥ "
a man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves. if hes not calling you to tell you he loves you & wants you back, it should only be because hes showing up at your house to do it in person. and, if hes not doing any of that.. he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately.. hes just not that into you. stop taking his calls & let him know what its like to live without you.
Breakups, I've heard, are supposed to be just that. Breaks. Hard, clean breaks. No talking, no seeing, no touching ... keep your hands to yourself. The relationship is over. Half the people I know move after a huge breakup, and frankly that makes perfect sense to me. You're not supposed to sleep with the guy who just broke your heart a week ago. Fine. Next time I'm in this situation I'll cry. Stay in bed and wail. Go to the gym if I can. Call all my friends and burden them with my misery. Sleep too much. Cry some more. See my therapist more often. Get a puppy. Do whatever I have to so eventually I can move on.
"just let me hold you while you're falling apart; just let me hold you and we'll both fall down ♥"
Let's start our lives right now, today.
I have no idea what this life is gonna look like,
but I know it has the both of us in it, and I choose us.
- Family Man
i'm ready to go all in.
i'm jumping head first
for this one. i'm doing
it all for you. i trust you.
i forgot how good it feels to be with
someone who wants to be with you. <3
I turned to his face. "look" i said
"I love you more than everything in the world combined.
Isn't that enough?" –Twilight
Truth or dare.
Truth? "Tell me how you really feel."
Dare? "Prove it."
I know I'm not easy to understand.
I know I keep a lot inside,
and I know I'm not the easiest person to read.
But thats okay you know, because
even though theres a lot about me you'll never know.
There's a lot of more of me you can learn to love.
you deserve to be with somebody
who makes you happy.
somebody who doesn't
complicate your life ;
somebody who won't hurt you.
'been feeling lost - cant find the words to say; spendin all my time stuck in yesterday. where you are, is where i wanna be.'
maybe the way we feel isn't supposed to be logical.
maybe it's okay to be unsure and scared.
maybe we lose so we learn to let go.
and maybe we leave in order to grow.
to blossom in to who we're meant to be.
maybe some things aren't supposed to make sense.
maybe you have to take risks to get what you deserve.
maybe we shouldn't underestimate our potential.
maybe we shouldn't set limitations or boundaries.
maybe life is divine chaos.
maybe it's okay to love ourselves.
maybe we don't need everything we want.
maybe we shouldn't fear the unknown,
but embrace it. learn from it.
maybe someone can exceed your expectations.
maybe we can control our destinies after all.
maybe we have to fight for what we believe in.
maybe we should stop second-guessing ourselves
and just jump in.
"when your dreaming with a broken heart
waking up is the hardest part. you roll out of
bed and down on your knee's. && for a moment
you can hardly breathe."
"Of course i like you.
It's because i like you i don't want to be with you.
It's a complicated emotion."
-- Finding Nemo
You can`t bullshit me. I`ve lied to myself enough to know when someone else is doing it. I wish that I could make you understand that I`m not angry with you. A little bitter, maybe, & clearly still heartbroken.
Bottom line: couples who are truely right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is, they don`t let it take them down.
It's not about what happened in the past, or what you think might happen in the future. It's about the ride, for Christ's sake. There is no point in going through all this crap if you are not going to enjoy the ride, and you know what? When you least expect it, something great might come along. Something better than you even planned for.
-Along Came Polly
Forget his name. Forget his walk.
Forget the way he used to talk.
Forget the love that you once knew.
Remember now, there's someone new.
Forget the fun that you once shared.
Forget the fact that he once cared.
Forget the time you spent together.
Remember now, he's gone forever.
Forget you memorized his every part.
Forget how he held your heart.
Forget the things he used to say.
Remember now, he's gone away.
Forget the times he used to phone.
Forget the night you were all alone.
Forget the times you wore his ring.
Remember now, shes everything.
Forget the thrills when he walked by.
Forget the times he made you cry.
Forget the way he said your name.
Remember now, things aren't the same.
Forget the times you looked into his eyes.
Forget you died when he said those goodbye.
I can't say I'm proud of my life but I can say I'm proud that I've learned. I've learned that I can't rely on everyone, but I can't expect everyone to hurt me. I know some things don't work out, but I know everything that has been for the better. I can't guarantee I'll be able to walk around with a smile, but I know where I've been and where I'm going. I know who I am and who my friends are. I've had some tough stuff thrown at me, but I've gotten by. I'm not one to complain so I'll keep trying, and in the end, I'll know I did my best.
Here's the honest truth: I showed you my sensitive side; It nearly killed me and now I spend day and night trying to squash it just so that nobody can ever hurt me the way you hurt me, and nothing hurts more than waiting since I don't even know what I'm waiting for anymore. It's not that I'm mad at you. It's just that I wished and hoped for too long and too hard that you could be the one thing I could truly count on.
| | |
| i could be your favorite blue jeans
with the holes in the knees in the bottom of the top drawer
i could be your little beauty queen
just a little out of reach
or the girl living next door
i'll be your angel giving up her wings
if thats what you need
i'd give everything to be your anything
don't you hate that? like bad guys, youre like, i just want to get over you. and, as soon as you stop thinking about them, they'll send you a text message because they know you stopped thinking about them. its like a radar. - lauren conrad.
i guess a part of growing up is dealing with regret. swallowing your pride. there are some things in life you cant go back and change.. no matter how much you want to.<3
you know what you want.. and you wont settle for anything less. - the hills.
She'll be the first to admit that she's not perfect.
Her life's a wreck, & the only thing holding her up
is the hope that it'll get better.
She's got some friends who would die for her,
& she has friends that would kill her, given the chance.
She has the mental stability of a psychiatric patient,
& the constant drama that surrounds her doesn't help.
She's lost all of the people she depended on,
whether it be death, or betrayal.
Despite everything that has happened to her,
the reason she keeps hanging on
is the hope that it will all get better.
dear girl, i think it's time for you to let go of him.
he hurt you and me too much. it's just a game to him.
listen to your friends and listen to me. you deserve better.
just let the memories fade. it's time to leave him behind.
i know it will be hard, but it's for the best. trust me.
remember to always follow me and everything will
be alright. love always, your heart.
you screwed up and you know it too... that's why you can't even bear to look at me anymore.
heres a big SCREW YOU to all the call i waited for, the dates i hoped for, the love i wanted, the tears i cried, and the heart you broke... asshole.
you were never a waste of time, you were just a harsh realization that i can do much better.
maybe some people arent meant to be in our lives forever.
maybe some are just passing through to teach us a lesson.
"i opened my heart to you. i cant just stand around like a fool, waiting for you to be ready." - boy meets world.
i need time to move on, i need love to feel strong.. cause ive had time to think it through & maybe im too good for you.
i wait for the day when i forget who you are, when the sound of your name is old and worn, the days i wont remember why i needed you so bad.
i refuse to cry over you anymore. yes, i still care. to be honest, i think i'll always care. but lifes too short and i'm going to do my best to be happy, with or without you.
"im going home, gonna load my shotgun, wait by the door & light a cigarette. he wants a fight? well now he's got one." - gunpowder and lead by miranda lambert.
"we both know that life is too short. too short to waste a single second with anyone who doesnt appreciate and value you." - the truth about forever.
i have so much to give you. so much love and heard and soul. so much caring. everything that i have in me. i am nto an empty vessel. i am brimming with passion and smiles and stores and pictures and romance. i want to break it, everything inside of me, into a million tiny pieces and wrap them up and give you one every day until you have them all. all of me. i have never wanted anyone to have so much of me before. i have had parts of me taken, almost unwillingly. but i want you to have me. this is different. and i dont mean sexually. that is the absolutely last thing on my mind when it comes to you. yes, its on my mind, but its not the most important thing. i love you more than i can remember loving anyone else. i could talk about you as much and as enthusiastically as i talk about any book that i love. i just - i just want you to love me back. and that might too much to ask, and i'm sure it is,but its all that i can think to ask. i believe that we could end up together. and we could stay together. it would be so easy. but maybe its good this way. maybe something is going to come out of it and we will all end up better off.
"we stand, breathing the same air, but yet i'm invisible to you. and sometimes it isnt. some people expect things to fall into their laps. oh, they might work for a bit for it. i'll just shake that tree, and if i shake it long enough that pretty red apple will plop right into my hand. never occurs to them that they might have to climb the tree, fall a couple times, and get some scrapes and bruises before they get that apple. because if the apple's worth wanting, its worth risking a broken neck." - nicholas sparks.
just remember, when you should grab something, grab it; when you should let go, let go.
You didn't love her; you don't destroy the people you love. -- Grey's Anatomy.
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I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. it isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. it's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. you made me a man, by loving me Holly. and for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. if you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. how lucky am I. you made my life, Holly. but I'm just one chapter in yours. there'll be more. I promise. so here it comes, the big one. don't be afraid to fall in love again. watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you. -P.S. I Love You
Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and opens your heart, and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up these defenses, you build this whole suit of armor so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul hurt, a body hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
-Neil Gailman.
Why do you build me up? To you, I'm a toy, but I could be the boy you adore, if you'd just let me know. Although you're untrue, I'm attracted to you all the more. Why do I need you so, baby, baby? -"Build Me Up Buttercup" by The Foundations.
i got everything i wanted & wished for, but in a way.. i lost even more., ♥
one day you'll wake up & i won't be there. can you honestly tell me what you would do? i know you wouldn't be able to go on one day without knowing what i was thinking or how i was feeling. you can't sleep without knowing you're under my skin. you want me to fall but, you dont want to catch me - its too much for you to deal with.
it's weird, you know the end of something that has taken so much time to get over is coming & you're so relieved that it's finally here but you still, for some reason, want to hold on. just for one more second, just so it can hurt a little more. after all, this problem has been your life for so long, you're not sure if you'll be used to being free.
"i think im afraid to be happy because whenever i get too happy, something bad happens. -charlie brown. ♥"
for this one night, could we try to forget everything;
besides just you and me?
it seems like i can never get enough time like that..
i need to be with you, just you.
- eclipse
without you, nothing feels as good.
it's like i'm missing some happy part of me.
- coach carter
maybe you're just scared, because for once in your life
someone actually wants to be with you.
- a walk to remember
sometimes i feel like i'm wasting all my time waiting for my life to start. id rather trip & fall than never try. i dont wanna waste another day while the world goes by, i wanna live it.. i wanna breathe it, i wanna feel it for myself.
i sat in front of my television and cried. cried because i lost you. cried because every single promise you made, every single thing you said kept replaying in my head and i wanted them all to come true. but because you weren't mine, they never would.
i've always listened to my friends and quotes saying, "you have to fight for what you want." i've been following those lines and i'm still the one who cries herself to sleep, hoping deep down inside that he'll call saying he's sorry for being so blind and i'm the one he's always loved. when all the memories that were supposed to keep me smiling for the rest of my life soon made me cry everytime i thought about them and all i ever did was love him with everything i had, plus more, while he loved me just enough to last for a while, because forever didn't mean a thing to him. i've had my heart on the line multiple times, only getting the same results in more painful ways. so when they kept saying, "you have to fight for what you love," did they also mean you had to fight for what you want, even if it didn't love you anymore?
he made a mistake. he pushed her away when he needed her most, replaced her with someone who didn't even come close. now he's got to live with the fact that there isn't anybody who will ever come close and there's no way she's ever coming back.
what do you do when there are two people in your life: one of them is completely wrong for you and has broken your heart, the other is perfect and knows how to treat you right- but you're totally and completely in love with the first.
maybe we broke up because it wasn't meant to be. maybe we weren't meant for each other. maybe we just weren't meant to be more than friends. i'll acept that, because love is unpredictable. whatever happens happens. and if in the end, we do end up back together, i know it's because faith wanted us to- not because we forced it.
do you ever wonder? i mean, about us. what happened? it was almost as if our relationship was a piece of paper, crumpled up and thrown away, forgotten. what might have happened if we didn't crumple up and throw it away? maybe we would still be together, maybe not. or maybe secretly, we haven't thrown it away yet. we're saving it because we're hoping someday we can pull it out of our pockets and rekindle what we once had. or maybe it's not even that we want it back, maybe it's just that we don't want to lose what we had, but at the same time we already know it's lost. i wonder that a lot, and i wonder if you wonder sometimes too.
and even though i know he's a jerk, and i know all he does is hurt me- i still love him, i still want him and i hate myself for it.
i'm not waiting on you to call me back anymore, because i don't need it. i won't waste my days thinking of you, because you're just bad news. you gave up too early, you let me down even before i was off the ground.
i hope you realize one day soon that you let someone go, who really cared about you. someone who really had something for you. i hope you realize that you're never gonna get her back or even someone quite like her. i hope you realize that mistake.
don't send me mixed signals, i don't like the confusion that they bring. i'd rather havve the honest truth, even if it hurts, because then i won't be wasting my time depending on false hope to keep me hanging on.
he can be so nice, then so mean. he can care and protect, make you laugh and at the same time play games with your head. and after he's done with that, he'll tear your heart out, rip it into the smalelst fragments known to man and leave it on the floor while all you can do is stand there, not being able to cry because you're so numb. because you thought that there was something there, when really there was nothing but a wayward boy out to break a poor girl's fragile heart. all because he didn' t know what he wanted.
watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love. but rather, it has shown me that if i wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it is when the right one comes along.
i want things to be more than okay.
for you to say what you mean and mean it.
i want this tension, this awkwardness to be gone
i dont want you; that ship has sailed.
i just want something other than this.
i know i'm not easy to understand,
i know i keep a lot inside.
and, i know i'm not the easiest person to read.
but.. thats okay you know, because even
though theres a lot about me youll never know,
theres a lot more of me you can learn to love.
If she could show you how much you hurt her,
you would never be able to look her in the eyes again.
I'm waiting for the day you realize what you gave up on.
if you walk out on me right now, youll be walking out on someone whos willing to give up their whole life just to make you happy. i want to be with you. if i could hold your hand for the rest of my life, i would never be scared again. i want to hold you tight & i just want to tell you every second how much you mean to me.. because no one has ever meant more. i want to be able to make you smile.. if you would just let me.
so tonight i'll sit and pick apart your pictures.
and overanalyze your words.
but the truth is that i've never fallen so hard,
it's taking everything in me.
- All Hail the Heartbreaker; The Spill Canvas
I know we're good together. You're the only person I can be myself with, even if I don't know who the hell that is.
-Rumor Has It
Sometimes we search for the things that are right in front of us.
-Freaky Friday
She's been hurt many times before this.
You'd think it would be routine by now.
You'd think she wouldn't let this get to her.
But the truth is, she trusted you.
"be on your guard, stand firm in faith; be
courageous, be strong. do everything in love."
-Corinthians 16:13
no one knows what the result will be when two people meet. no one knows when they fall in love & if they will be able to stay that away. but, to feel that at all, even for a minute, to find love & connection in a world gone mad, in my book, are the lucky ones. and, if that cant last forever, then the best they can hope for is the honesty to face up to it when it ends.
I want him to know.
I just don't want to tell him ♥
and, it feels exactly how it feels when you find that really good song, that song that just pulls you in the second it begins to play. and, that one really good song never seems to get old.. and you just want it to last forever each time you hear it. its the song that lifts your spirits & brings you up, and just makes you feel all these emotions all at once. thats the same feeling you get when you begin falling for someone.
love isnt about the words we say, the actions we take, the things we do, the hearts we break.. its about people who can look at eachother & just know.
for what its worth, its never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. theres no time limit.. start whenever you want.. you can change or stay the same. there are no rules to this thing. we can make the best or the worst of it. i hope you make the best of it. i hope you see things that stop you. i hope you feel things that youve never felt before. i hope you meet people with a different point of view. i hope you live a life that you`re proud of & if you find that you`re not, i hope you have the stregnth to start all over again. -benjamin button.
i think that everyone can change if the right person comes along. and, i think that every girl wants to be the right person. every girl wants to be the one girl that can change that guy. -lauren conrad.
when i think about it, you`re my first thought in the morning & my last thought before closing my eyes, just so i can dream about you.
ps. youre amazing, extravagant, incredible, great, fanntastic, excellent, top of the charts, outta this world, the best.. & did i mention amazing?
Even when the sky is grey,
somehow you make it a brighter day.
And when I can't see past the rain,
you dry it, you dry it away.
I can't believe that this happened to me.
I might get restless but you're all I need.
No matter how bad the day,
time just seems to fall away with you.
Nothing really matters cuz..
It could be the end of the world today,
a hurricane could come and blow me away,
but if you're real close,
right next to me,
nothing else matters
cuz everything
falls away.
"♥ she can do just fine on her own two feet. she'll never change, don't know how to hide her stubborn will or her fightin' side. but you treat her right and she'll love you like no one else♥ -george strait. "
“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”
"some people are settling down, some people are settling & some people refuse to settle for anything less than BUTTERFLIES. ♥
truth be told, i miss you. truth be told, i'm LYING. when you see my face, hope it gives you hell!
Don't worry, he'll miss you. You're the best he could get and he blew it. Don't let him make you think for one second that it was your fault. It's not. He screwed up, and you did absolutely nothing wrong. You gave him your heart and you trusted him to keep it and protect it, but he couldn't. And honestly, he's not mature enough. He's not smart enough. If he was smart, he would have cared for you with every fiber of his being and been with you in every spare second he could. But he didn't, and now he's gone. But don't you cry. Don't call him telling him you miss him. Don't IM him. Don't message him, don't comment him, don't talk to him in the hallways. Just pretend you don't care. And don't be surprised when he comes crawling back saying he made a mistake. And if you want to go, go with him again. Don't make him work for you. Don't be his doormat. Don't let him in the first time he rings the bell. Make him come back every day until you trust him enough. If he doesn't come back after a couple of tries, just let him go. But if he comes back every day, then he's worth it. Trust me. He's worth it.
some of the best things in life are total mistakes. - paycheck.
I can feel the love that others give to me. But will I ever find the love that crashes and explodes and intertwines with mine? Or will that be the tornado that tears apart my paradise? Or the wave that pulls me under until I can't find the surface, and suffocates me? Is love something beautiful or terrifying? Is this rush of blood in my veins a warning or a sign that my heart is yours if you fill mine?
-Wontstopbreaking.
All you can do in life is try to solve the problem in front of you.
-Mean Girls.
Just breathe. It's gonna be okay.
-One Tree Hill.
I know you don't believe in fairy tales, but if you did, I'd want to be your knight in shining armor. You've been through so much, I don't want to see you hurt anymore. Now, I may not be able to give you all he used to, but I do know I can love you past your pain. I don't want you to worry about anything. I mean, wake up in the morning, and that's all you have to do. I'll take care of the rest from there. There's one condition - you have to be my wife. -Diary Of A Mad Black Woman.
here's to being lied to, to being walked on, to being used, promised something and given nothing. here's to seeing the best in him, and believing he could never be as bad as he turned out to be. here's to trusting him over and over again because you really wanted to believe that what he did was a mistake and that he's changed. guess what? he won't change. he knows what he's doing when he's doing it. he knows it will hurt you, but he does it anyway. here's to him saying sorry. the only reason he's sorry is because he got caught. excuses mean nothing. at least it's a lesson learned. so now, here's to moving on.
life is the ability to feel so happy, you think your insides are going to explode. it’s being so upset or disappointed, you feel as if your stomach just dropped ten feet out of place. it’s running so hard, you can barely breathe. it’s that feeling of panic when you know you’ve been caught doing something wrong. it’s having that sudden rush before you kiss someone you care about. it’s opening your eyes and feeling them sting because you spent the whole night crying. it’s letting people go, but letting new ones come in and all the while, realizing that life doesn’t have a purpose unless you let it.
im not obsessed, im not crazy, im not even a hopeless romantic.. all i know is i need you.
when you look at me, its like youre secretly trying to tell me not to give up hope. but, i want you to know something.. i almost have.
she wants him. she cant deny it.
shes just so confused. because,
when she thinks back to the day
he shattered her, she trembles at
the thought of feeling like that again.
what is heartbreak?
it`s lying on the bathroom floor trying your damnedest to breathe
while simultaneously wondering why it went wrong, how you're
gonna get up & pretend like everything is alright. and, what the
hell are you going to do about that hole in your chest?
yea, i think thats it.
At the end of the day,
there are some things you just can't help but talk about.
Somethings we just don't want to hear, & somethings.
Somethings we say cause we can't be silent any longer.
Somethings are more than what you say, they're what you do.
Somethings you say cause there's no other choice.
Somethings you keep to yourself. & not too often,
but every now and then,
somethings simply speak for themselves.
-Grey's Anatomy
baby, if you took the time to listen to her
favorite songs, you'd understand.
it replays everyday; in my mind a thousand times...
her cheeks are stained with tears..
but, at least her head is help up high.
i worry myself crazy til i cant catch my breath.
i dont have to live this way, so baby why dont you stay..
she fell, she hurt, she felt, she lived.
and, for the tumble of her experiences,
she still had hope. maybe this next time
we do the trick, or maybe not. but, unless
you stepped into the game.. you would never know.
he reaches over and he touches you,
like a prayer for which no words exist.
and you feel your heart taking root
in your body, like you've discovered
something you don't even have a name for.
you`re not my type. you`re not supposed to be the guy i dream about.
but, for some reason.. i'm not trying to pick myself back up, because
even if i`m not supposed to, there`s no one else id rather fall for.
all i wanted was for him to hug me. to tell me that everything was going to be okay. to be my rock. he had always been there for me. whenever i screwed up or everything around me seemed to be falling apart, he made it better. but, he couldnt make this better.. because this time, my screw up had hurt him. i had deprived myself of my one true comfort in my life.. and the realization gouged my heart out. -kate brian.
It’s so hard to describe. It’s not like love at first sight, really. It’s more like…gravity moves. When you see her, suddenly it’s not the earth holding you here anymore. She does. And nothing matters more than her. And you would do anything for her, be anything for her…You become whatever she needs you to be, whether that’s a protector, or a lover, or a friend, or a brother. -Twilight♥
I love you, don't you see? Don't you understand? You're the love of my life. I can't leave you but you're constantly leaving me. You walk away when you want. You come back when you want. You stand by everyone, but you leave me. So I'm asking you, if you don't see a future for us, if you're not into this, please just end it because I can't. I'm in it. Put me out of my misery. -Grey's Anatomy.
& when i first met you, i would have never imagined that i would have such strong feelings for you. i never would have thought i would miss being by your side, or get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions your name. when i first met you, i never would have thought that i would love you. & the best thing is, i do love you.♥
love is such a strong word. when we were just little kids, we always thought love was just about hugs, kisses & happiness. but, as we grow.. we learn that its not just about happiness. its about learning to accept rejections, tears & heartbreaks. thats where i come to help you up, wipe those tears away, put your heart back to one when you`re hurt from love. and, when i say i love you.. youd better believe that i mean that with every fiber of my being.
i miss the sound of your voice. and, i miss the rush of your skin.
and, i miss the still of the silence as you breathe out & i breathe in.
and, i ache to remember all the violent, sweet perfect words you said.
i miss the pull of your heart, i taste the sparks on your tongue.
i see angels & devils & God.. when you come on.
i may not be his first, his last or his only. hes cared about someone before me & possibly will again. but, he cares for me now & thats all that matters. i dont expect him to be perfect, because i know im flawed as well. and, its true.. he may not think of me every second of every day & i may not be the center of his universe. but, he gave me a part of him he knows i can break. so, i wont hurt him or try to change him & i wont expect more than i know he can give. my only promise is that i will make him smile when he makes me happy, yell when he makes me mad, miss him when hes not there & love him like he'll never break my heart.
i swear to God, every time i think i have you figured out.. you turn around & give me hell again.
sometimes i just want to think that he misses me, but other times.. i dont think i even cross his mind.
if i were a boy, i think i could understand how it feels to love a girl. i swear, id be a better man. id listen to her cause i know how it hurts when you lose the one you wanted, cause hes taken you for granted.. and everything you had got destroyed.
i liked it when my fingers were entangled in yours & my head was on your chest listening to your heartbeat. it made me feel safe. like, at that moment... nothing bad could touch me.
this is about knowing the difference between right & wrong, between the truth & a lie. he took that from you. and, if you cant tell the difference, then you cant trust anyone.. and if you cant trust, you cant love. - georgia rule.
theres a reason why people descrive love as "head over heels." you feel like youre completely upside down. theres the physical stuff - your cheeks getting hot, the flutters in your stomach. then, theres the mental maddness - you feel like youre losing your mind because all you can think about is the way they smell, how good it feels when they put their arms around you, or the cute little dimples they get when they smile. when youre with them, theres no other place youd rather be & when youre not.. you can barely wait to see them again. love is a total high.
i used to be mad at you. a little on the hurt side, too. but i'm not who i was. i found my way to forgive you some time ago, but i never got to tell you. i found us in a photograph. i saw me and i had to laugh. you know, i'm not woh i was. you were htere, you were right beside me and i wonder if you ever loved me for who i was. when the pain bame back again, like a bitter friend, it was all i could do to keep myself from blaming you. i reckon its a funny thing. i figured out i can sing. now i'm not who i was. i write about love and suck. maybe cause i want it so much.
more than anything, i'd like to see better, brighter for you, for you and me.
"we stand, breathing the same air, but yet i'm invisible to you. and sometimes it isnt. some people expect things to fall into their laps. oh, they might work for a bit for it. i'll just shake that tree, and if i shake it long enough that pretty red apple will plop right into my hand. never occurs to them that they might have to climb the tree, fall a couple times, and get some scrapes and bruises before they get that apple. because if the apple's worth wanting, its worth risking a broken neck."
- nicholas sparks
i hate getting told i deserve better when i don't want better.
this is something worth keeping, believe me.
i hate that i never said i love you. i guess thats part of being in grown-up love, because thats what this was. it wasnt teenage, mushy gushy stuff. it was real. i wouldve given anything & everything for you. i was willing to tough out the hard stuff & fight this up-hill battle every day. when you were in pain, i was miserable. when you were happy, the world was right. God, i loved you.
its you. youre the one i talk about all the time & the one i cant stop thinking about. the one that can make me laugh when i dont even want to smile, the one that can make me feel better in 2.2 seconds.. its you that im crazy about.
if i ever give you any advice, this is it - live happy. that's all you need to know. through all the hard times and all the struggles has any person ever perservered because they sat around feeling sorry for themselves? the answer to that is no. when faced with difficult situations, rather than mope and whine, make the best of what you have and live your life to the fullest. youre likely to regret the time you spent waiting for something to happen and that time can be put into something you enjoy doing. you don't need other people to make you happy. quite the contrary, you need to make yourself happy first and foremost, before you can expect anyone to give you and aid in giving you the happiness you expect in return. think about it; how much fun have you had recently? why? because you expect other people to make your fun. have fun for yourself. be the life of a party, dont expect the party to make your life. finally, something everyone should remember, but rarely does anyone, there are millions of people in the world who are worse off than you. people living in poverty, people who don't own cars, nevermind reliable ones. people who dont even have access to a desktop computer, nevermind have their own laptop. people who can't even afford a disposeable camera, nevermind owning a digital camera and a camcorder. there are people who cant even afford to see one movie in a theatre, nevermind an entire home theatre system. so many people would die to be in your shoes and i see so many people not being appreciative of what they have. thats just the material items. besides that, how many people get bullied and are neglected and told no one loves them. people with boyfriends or girlfriends or simply loving families often take for granted how lucky they really are. not everyone is that fortunate to have people who have their back and will hold their hand through hell and high waters. i guess, in general, this is a message to anyone who is upset because something in their life didnt go their way; this is to the people who are selfish and forget that money can't buy happiness. learn to live without material items and learn to deal with the curveballs life throws you. nothing in life is fair. its one hurdle after another. but if you constantly cry and whine because you didnt get what you want, lifes going to seem a whole lot tougher than you'd like. make the most of what you have; what youve recieved and what youve earned because not everyone is so lucky.
People ask me, "Why do you believe in God? How do you know God exists? What if God is a hoax?" But I mean, why do people believe in love? So many people kill each other; our world is degrading, divorces are at an all time high, and a lot of people cheat on one another. With all that, how can you believe in love? When you hear it like that, love just sounds like a hoax. But when you see love, when you feel love, it gives you this hope. That's why you hear about it all the time; that's why it's the biggest issue in our world. Love is something cliché as it sounds, it's truly unexplainable. God is unexplainable. He sent his only son to die for us, us humans who are so screwed up. Love is the very foundation our universe is built upon. Without love, none of us would be here. -Chloe Higashida
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